By Mildred Rainey
I didn't
think I'd ever do it!
Surely it
was worrying!
Eeeeek
it's what my Granny did, and then
I'd noticed my Mum doing the same thing!
Could it
be a generational thing that I needed some serious prayer ministry for??
How could
it have happened???
When did I start???
The
younger folk who lived in Granny's generation used to shake their heads, smile
and whisper to each other 'Ach! Bless her, she's talking to herself again!!!!'
BUT!!! I have now, with maturity and wisdom (I
hope) come to realise that I don't have to apologise for it, or pretend I wasn't talking to
myself. I don't have to explain
that it's really an essential part of my creative personality! I now know - IT'S
BIBLICAL! I'm in famous company
- for instance King David did it all the time
Phew!!!! It's OK!!! Breathe again :-)
What I've
also come to realise though is - it's even more important WHAT I talk to myself
about!
MY WORDS
MATTER! They are so important that
God talks about what we say all through the Bible.
It's a
bit scary but our words really do create - either good or bad, and it's been proved that we will
believe much quicker what we hear our own voice say about ourselves than what
others say.
If, for
example, you say often enough, even without thinking, 'Oh I'm stupid'
(a word incidentally that I personally and passionately believe should
be banned from the English language!) but, if you do this, you will believe
it, AND IT'S NOT TRUE!
Bill Johnson says - 'words planted in the heart attract opportunities for fulfilment. You change the course of your destiny by what you meditate on, by what you embrace.'
Meditating
is a Biblical exercise we are told to practise, and we all do it and are quite expert at it actually
(although it's usually the wrong sort of meditating which is called
'worrying'!)
Part of
meditating includes muttering to ourselves - I like it!
Earlier
this year I was feeling very overwhelmed by the 'too muchness' of my
life. Too much piled up all
around me and all of it important,
and for once it wasn't my fault!
I really hadn't over-packed my days, but it seemed to be never ending. As soon as I got one thing sorted and started to breathe
again, suddenly the next was hurtling towards me at an alarming rate and I
didn't feel I had any more energy left. Do you know the feeling?
My best
prayer seemed to constantly be 'Lord HELP!!! I can't do this!!'
I did not
feel like a strong, faith-filled,
mature woman of God.
Isaiah is
one of my favourite Old Testament books and one morning after my 'Help Lord'
prayer I was reading in chapter 41, and suddenly verse 13 just 'jumped out' at
me -
'Because I, your God have a firm grip on you and I'M NOT LETTING GO, I'm telling you DON'T PANIC!! I'M RIGHT HERE TO HELP YOU'.
Wow!! It honestly was exactly what I needed
to hear and I personalised the words and started to say them out loud to myself
- realising it was God, the Creator of the universe, my Father who was speaking
them to me - I would say,
'Today, I have a firm grip on you Mildred and I'm not letting go!! I'm telling you DON'T PANIC!! I'm right here to help you'
At the
start of a busy new season The Lord has again reminded me of this verse and I'm
again 'muttering it' to myself.
Why not
experiment for a week - ask Holy Spirit to help you and remind you not to say
anything that contradicts what God says about you?
Maybe you
would like to take the verse I'm using - just take the week and 'meditate' on
it.
Say the
words out loud to yourself and say your name where the dots are........
Today, I have a firm grip on you...........and I'm not letting go! I'm telling you DON'T PANIC! I'm right here to help you
Or maybe
these verses are the 'food' your heart needs
..............I am your Shepherd. I have made provision for everything you will ever need. I never ever stop thinking about you - you are so precious to me
Don't
forget - you must say it OUT LOUD to yourself.
It's from
your Father who is crazy about you.
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